We recently had the chance to connect with Adrian (laesaidit) and have shared our conversation below.
Adrian, it’s always a pleasure to learn from you and your journey. Let’s start with a bit of a warmup: Are you walking a path—or wandering?
I can say that I’m intentional, even if it doesn’t always feel that way. My life shows a pattern of seeking truth, justice, and self-awareness—building my brand, uncovering hidden truths about myself, and using my voice to heal and advocate. Every step I take, even the messy or painful ones, is directed toward a purpose: clarity, impact, and authenticity. Wandering implies aimlessness, but I’m actively shaping my journey, learning from it, and choosing what aligns with my core self.
Can you briefly introduce yourself and share what makes you or your brand unique?
Hi, I’m Adrian. My life hasn’t always been easy, but every challenge, every heartbreak, and every moment of growth has shaped who I am today. I walk with intention, even when the path feels uncertain, seeking truth, uncovering the hidden parts of myself, and using my voice to heal and advocate. Every step I take—painful or beautiful—is a choice to live authentically, to honor my story, and to make an impact. I’m not here to drift through life; I’m here to face it fully, embrace it deeply, and become the person I’m meant to be.
I come from humble beginnings, but my dreams are enormous. I want to be a motivational speaker, an actress, a comedian, and the founder of a nonprofit—someone who changes the narrative and rewrites the story of my lineage. I carry the weight of my past, the pain that hurt me and my ancestors, and I refuse to let it define us. Every struggle, every setback, every wound is a stepping stone. I want to prove to myself—and honor my ancestors—that none of it was in vain, and that we are capable of rising higher than we ever imagined.
I believe my brand is my voice—my refusal to let circumstances or people silence me. Some might not believe that you can change things with just your voice, but I do. I really do. I know my story deserves to be told, and I’m working tirelessly to put myself in a position where others can share their stories with me—and where someone who needs to hear it can actually hear it. There was a time when life felt bleak for me, and it was listening to my good sis (Sarah Jakes Roberts) on YouTube that kept me grounded and praying. I don’t know her personally, so calling her my “good sis” is just a figure of speech, lol—but her words saved me when I needed them most.
Thanks for sharing that. Would love to go back in time and hear about how your past might have impacted who you are today. What did you believe about yourself as a child that you no longer believe?
As a child, I believed I wasn’t enough—that my voice didn’t matter, that my pain and my story weren’t worthy of being heard. I carried shame and thought that my struggles defined me, that I was somehow responsible for the chaos around me. But I no longer believe that. I know now that my story is powerful, my voice matters, and my experiences have shaped my strength and purpose. What I went through doesn’t limit me—it fuels me.
My parents were addicts, and I’ve had to pull myself out of some very dark places. For a long time, I had to keep reminding myself, “It’s not my fault.” Little me truly believed it was—that I had done something wrong. I thought if the people who were supposed to love me couldn’t, then maybe something was wrong with me… so why even stay?
What did suffering teach you that success never could?
Suffering taught me resilience, self-awareness, and the value of my own voice in a way success never could. It showed me who I truly am when everything is stripped away—the strength I didn’t know I had, the courage to face my own pain, and the empathy to see and help others who are struggling. Success can feel good, but it doesn’t teach you how to rise when life keeps knocking you down. Suffering taught me that my story, my voice, and my choices matter, even when no one else seems to notice. Life has been my greatest teacher, and rock bottom has been my guide.
I think our readers would appreciate hearing more about your values and what you think matters in life and career, etc. So our next question is along those lines. Is the public version of you the real you?
The public version of me is real—but it’s not the whole me. What people see is the strength, the voice, the healing—but not always the scars that built it. I show up as myself, but I’ve also learned to protect the parts of me that are still tender. The public me is the survivor, the storyteller, the advocate. The private me is still learning, still healing, still soft. They’re both real—I’ve just learned that not every truth has to be public to be authentic.
Thank you so much for all of your openness so far. Maybe we can close with a future oriented question. What pain do you resist facing directly?
The pain I resist facing most is the deep, lingering hurt of feeling abandoned by the people who were supposed to love me—my parents. For a long time, I carried guilt, shame, and the belief that I was somehow the problem. Even now, it’s hard to sit with that fully, to face the grief, anger, and loneliness without trying to fix it or move past it. It’s uncomfortable, but I know I have to face it to fully heal and break the cycle for myself and my lineage.
And finally, I’m accepting that yes, my grandma is gone—she’s been gone since 2014—and my grandpa is gone, since 2019. I’ve never been able to say that out loud and truly accept it. It was too hard, because they were the parents I didn’t have. Losing them felt like they took a piece of me with them, and I still don’t know how to fill that void—or if I’ll ever be that Adrian again, the one I was before my favorite people left me… alone.
Contact Info:
- Youtube: https://www.youtube.com/@Laesaiditt
- Other: TikTok: www.tiktok.com/@laesaidit
Email: adrianmoniqued@gmail.com
